I’m going to abandon the usual Genius Hour log format for this entry. I’ve been thinking about a lot of things in the past couple days, in large part spurred by the conversations I’ve had with Kevin. I think, for a long time, I’ve had a very naive understanding of life - almost as a game. I’ve been arrogant; I’ve been thinking I’d be able to cruise through the world. And I guess I didn’t try to question or probe deeper into those thoughts because I was scared.
This is not a path I can continue down on. Dad has always reiterated the importance of “free will.” I agreed logically, but it never really sank in. I never really tried to make it sink in. I’m going to change that.
Long story short, I need to be on top of my shit. I need to throw myself out there more and do cool, meaningful things. I can’t afford to stagnate. Normally Melissa is the one coming up with all the ideas. I need to turn that around. Just ask myself, “What would be cool?” That’s a sufficient starting point.
It’s too easy to get lost in the rhythm of homework and all those other externally-imposed requirements. To get lost in being busy. But what I need is quiet, serious, thinking time.
Let’s do this shit.